Monday, March 14, 2005

Up To 66 Things About Me

1. CPW and I shared a room growing up and she use to come to my bed and "visit" at night when we were suppose to be sleeping.
2. I drink way too much diet coke.
3.When my Dad died I was mad at him, I have not forgiven him just because he is dead.
4. His death taught me not to hold hate in my heart for people unless I am ok with being mad at them even after they are dead.
5. I lie to my doctor about how much I smoke.
6. The movie Beaches makes me cry every time I see it.
7. The one thing all the guys I have ever loved have in common, it that they all slow danced with me. I could never love anyone who will not slow dance with me.
8. My suicide possession is my Letter Box, I have every card and letter I have received since I was in the 8th grade.
9. If I ever decided to kill myself, I will give it to CPW.
10. I have thought seriously about giving it away twice.


11. I kept journals in high school, I recently reread them with my Mom, and they were hysterical and reminded high school sucks and that every thing passes.
12. I was not popular in high school; I had a few close friends.
13. I really wanted to go to Anderson College, I knew my family could afford it, the night before my Senior Honors Day, AC called offered me money and a Financial Aid guy named Jeff Holiday said if I would commit to AC he would make sure I had the money, I did and he did. It was one of the first times in my life I really wanted something and got it.
14. My Mom did not want me to go to AC, she thought I would not take it serious because I had not been serious in High school.
15. I was on the Dean's List every semester but 2.
16. The first time I remember feeling pretty was on a church trip to Helen, GA when I was in the 8th grade. We asked the carriage driver for his autograph and he wrote on a piece of paper: You have the most beautiful blue eyes. When I felt ugly in high school, I would reread that.
17. I am legally blind; it is a felony for me to drive without my contact or my glasses.
18. My husband never saw me with my glasses on.
19. I am in debt and it bothers me.
20. I have a temper that scares me, it is not often I get mad.


21. I have been in 2 physical fights since I have been an adult. One was with my husband, I won but not because he did not try instead because I have the quick instincts to throw heavy things and was blessed with good aim. The other was CPW and I lost, she had on better shoes and can kick pretty high.
23. I talk to myself in the car but I put my hands free in so it looks like I am on the phone because I care what strangers in cars think about me.
24. I have no desire to have children
25. My first job was cleaning the Condo's that I now manage, I did it with my 2 best friends and it was a blast.
26. At one point I was so in love with my husband I made him promise me he would let me die first because I thought it would be torture to live with out him.
27. I started considering leaving him when I would catch myself thinking it would be much easier if he would just die.
28. When my husband first proposed I said yes, then said no and gave the ring back, then I wanted the ring back, this all during a 3 day time period.
29. I always wanted to get married in the fall outdoors. I was married in the spring inside.
30. CPW found my wedding dress at a thrift store in Virginia and I loved it.


31. I had all of the following majors in college: Elementary Education, English, 2nd Education English, Psychology, Human Services and Resources, Business with a Concentration in Human Resource Management. I still graduated on time with over 20 hours of extra credits.
32. I was the first person from Anderson College to graduate with a degree in Business with a Concentration in Human Resource Management.
33. I was named Business Student of the Year my senior year.
34. My husband and I had a song, it was Fools Rush In by Elvis and he use to sing it to me at karaoke.
35. The day my grandmother died she bought CPW and I tickets to a Bush Concert. She was wearing one of our School House Rock T-shirts and had love bows in her hair, she was the coolest person in the world until she died and then CPW took over.
36. I was very jealous of CPW in high school.
37. I will own another convertible before I die. The first one I had was a Geo Metro, it was a POS but I loved it.
38. I often drive with my sunroof open and the heat on.
39. I have not yet had sex in my Honda Civic, I have had it almost a year. I have had sex in every other car that I have owned.
40. One year on Christmas Eve, CPW changed all the presets on our stereo to play only stations that had Christmas music on and we stayed up and listened and sang along to it all night, that is one of my favorite Christmas memories.



41. I cheated on my husband with someone I could never love and never wanted to date. He made me feel happy and I was very unhappy. We only slept together once, we kissed many times, it was more emotional than physical. I was very selfish.
42. I do not regret cheating on my husband. He broke the vow of love, honor, and cherish first. Plus, he did it too.
43. All he knew before I left that I had kissed one guy, once, while we were married. I told the truth after I left.
44. I knew he cheated before I left, that is not the reason I left.
45. I have had a 3some, I only suggest doing it if you are among strangers. It is not a good idea to do it with someone you love and someone you know.
46. Geez, this is hard and I want to go and delete most of these.
47. My mom drinks too much and too often. I can't bring myself to say she is an alcoholic.
48. All of my Grandparents and my dad are dead. I am not very close to my Aunts and Uncles so the only family I count are my Mom, CPW, and Little Bit.
49. I have cheated on the last 3 serious boyfriends I have had.
50. I make myself forget things I don't want to remember.


51. The first song I every sang Karaoke was "Something to Talk About" by Bonnie Rait
52. I hate to have my feet touched.
53. I have kissed The Cellist's best friend.
54. I played Varsity Soccer all 4 years of highschool.
55. In highschool I was very much in love with a boy who moved to France, sometimes I think about using a service to track him down.
56. I love the counting crows. I once tried to figure out what the writing on the front of August and Everything After were. I also sent a letter, care of the record company, to Adam Duritz telling him I thought his music was amazing. I did not get a response
57. I have a current public library card and I got to the library at least once a week, my library number is 12622015 and, although I am normally a loud and outspoken person, I like going to the library and being quite.
58. I think it would be cool to one day meet and fall in love with some one at the library.
59. I never read a book just once, some books I reread at least once a year.
60. I lost my virginity when I was 17 the summer before I turned 18, I made it a point to wait until after I graduated from Highschool. I have no regrets about it and while I would NEVER date this person again he was perfect to lose it to.

61. If I am really bored waiting somewhere I like to count things, like tiles in the floor.
62. I have never kissed anyone that CPW has kissed.
63. I love lillies, they are my favorite flower, yet no guy I have ever dated has given them to me.
64. I can eat an entire large Papa John's Ham Pineapple and Onion pizza. Not all at once, but 3 pieces at a time over the course of 2 average length movies.
65. I have a messy car. There is stuff like empty DC cans, purses because the bag I was carring didnt match so I changed bags in the car, etc all over the place even though I try to keep it neat
66. I have a very messy closet most of the time, I can not grasp the concept of 1) try it on 2) Hang it back up, do not toss back into the floor